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Well I woke up a whole year older today. seventeen hooray. My awesome friend angel baked me a damn fine cake...I got a dollar on the bus this morning, I'm going out to dinner with my family tonight...and then Brad and Sarah are coming over and we're going to drink and play trouble because we're awesome. It's going to be good I swear. oh yeah....I get to meet Chad's family tomorrow...and we're going to the play so....I had a pretty ok birthday.Thanks everyone you rock my sox off
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[28 Apr 2005|02:27am] |
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Dudes everything's awesome...Brad's happy with Sarah and I'm happy with 19, And I saw Amittyville Horror last night.
Wow Meg came to school and I was so damn happy...it was great. I gotta cut it short Shoie's being all awesome again...hey guys guess what? My G-ma's coming home from FLA today and Herb gets out of Jail and today is a good day.
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[20 Apr 2005|05:47pm] |
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Ok so it's 4-20 first time I've been to meagen's in a long ass time...too long and that's bullshit but..........we're gonna get fucked up and have some fun so it's gravy............oh god I'm so fucking blown meg! hahaha U know u love it. ummmmmmmmm....don't know what to say but I had fun in graphics and I wanna say what's up to Ber, Lnore, Cookie......and all the other "fuck-ups" at graphix....oh yeah ps........Love you chad....or as you would say "OliveJuice"...and you know you want to be on me.
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| Happy Birthday Gina |
[30 Mar 2005|07:51pm] |
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Gina...happy birthday. I've been having a pretty good break..I miss Katie Quaid though.I'm going shopping on Friday....blow some more money,you know how it is.I think I'm going to do a couple charcoals before I go home. I need some still lifes anyway. Well I have to go burn some food...later
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[25 Mar 2005|01:48am] |
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I'll be seeing you |
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Today was boring...extremely gay. I was supposed to hang out tonight but my dad decided to be a fag and show up early so I guess I'm off to detroit tonight. Sorry 19...anyway I finally finished my resume and my coverletter today. interesting kind of. Actually really boring. Well I have to go pick on Casey...he's giving me a mean look. Bye for now.
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| Presenting the unpresentable |
[17 Mar 2005|02:09am] |
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I became a hypocrit today....I had to give a presentation on tobacco and health and how I was "against" it. Brad and I both smoke and We worked together...in the end though we told the entire class that we both smoked but we'd never suggest that anyone else do it because we'd rather endanger ourselves than others. So I guess I got my point across. Lots of controversy today.
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| Tired |
[16 Mar 2005|02:36am] |
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I finally got started on my critical issues paper with Brad today...we got our outline and our poster done so it was really fucking productive...like way more than usual and it rocked. I found out a lot more than I needed to know about what turns the male population of Pm graphix on....it was really quite gross. I need sleep....I stayed up late last night....amazing what coffee does to the average person huh? Anyways I gotta go....update later.
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| funny shit.... |
[01 Mar 2005|02:17am] |
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ok I recorded and I kept laughing at the word pubic lice because it's funny....and then eric kept saying religious terms and sex related stuff...and then he even gave me a lap dance and I laughed so hard at the little deusch bag that nothing got done today but we're gonna have some good blupers....hahaha...it was good being useless today. Anyways....more recording tomorrowish...it's gonna be good....bye for now
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| broken bones.....I wonder if a heart could be a bone |
[01 Mar 2005|12:53am] |
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Blondie-heart of glass |
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hmmmmm......deffinately had a boring weeekend. I slept quite a bit....I watched the goonies...but i missed edward scissor hands in the process...oh well at least I caught the better of the two. I ate steis's pizza too. It was good. anyways I feel like a horrible person today...Eric thinks that i told his personal info. to troy and troy's been calling his x and all this shit's been going on...but eric still loves me i suppose. I wish I was at home in bed because this really kinda sucks.I have really chapped lips..I look like shit and I have to be recorded on tape today...eeeehhhhh......well i'd better jet...got work to do.
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[26 Feb 2005|02:20am] |
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Today was a weird friday...it went really slowly. The clamation is finally complete-interview and all. Mrs. V makes me laugh...she's amazing. Anyways...I got some terrific new...I'm grounded until the end of time....fun stuff. Lots of cleaning going on this weekend. Anywho...i gotta go. buh-bye pets
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| Productivity complete...... |
[25 Feb 2005|02:24am] |
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I got alot done this week so today was a "hey graphix is for cool kids and cool kids don't do work...they have fun" day. Yeah so I basically looked up song lyrics and listened to music for three hours. Anyways I feel like I want to go to Denny's and eat....because it's the sweet thing to do. And I want a peanut butter and sugar sandwich. And I wish I was a pillow....those of you who know what I'm talking about (Meg) please don't comment....I love you lots and that's why this priveleged information is known by you. Hey you know what's cool....Alot of my friends have Thursday off...maybe we'll get to hang out if i can weasle my way out of punishment....hmmmm....so much to think about...so little time. I haven't smiled this much and meant it in a long time.
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| ummm......wanna hear something quiet but ever so beautiful.... |
[24 Feb 2005|01:58am] |
Read real closely now...I fopund this today and I'm not giving it back to the owner...not in a thousand years.
" I still recall the first full moon of May, 'Neath whose rays we lay together, and those bright nights when on glassy waves we gently glide away from the grain for wicked flights of PLEASURE"
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| I forgot to breathe |
[23 Feb 2005|12:50am] |
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ok so my lungs forgot to do the work on thursday man. I just found something in someone that i never saw before and i haven't stopped thinking about things.....It's crazy what a look can do to you. Anyways....CCS was amazing....I really don't want to live there but I think it would be cool if I could study abroad through CCS. I want to visit Europe...Italy...maybe paint a few viniards and the cities covered in water...it's going to be amazing. Anyways...they liked my stuff but I need to work on my shading. They said that the smudge effect is the easy way out and I need to work on gradiation with lines and stuff. I was pretty much accepted I think but whatever....I liked watching one of the kids blowing glass and it was sweet. I got to hang with Chad and Mike which was really fun...I got to be a pillow...me and chad accidentally broke the van seats because we're bad people....mwahaha...yeah anyways I had fun. Oh yes I died a big streak of violet/Plum in the front of my head and it took like 3 hours just for the bleach to work. Me and my mom were betting on the hair actually falling out before it turned blonde..heh..but it looks pretty ok I suppose. Anyways I gotta jet good buddies. Take care.....
P.S.: Sex can wait
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| subtle ties.....empty lies |
[16 Feb 2005|02:14pm] |
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today was...hectic.I've been workin' my fanny off painting and drawing all week...I have a portfolio review at ccs tomorrow..I'm nervous but I'm excited too. My portfolio is all kinds of empty but by tomorrow hopefully it'll be teeming with colors. I feel like shit too....I've caught myself a cold...strange I felt fine before I drank the chamomile tes&honey last night...then I fell asleep and woke up ill. There's been some other things bothering me lately.....I didn't sleep more than three hours last night and I'm still on go...don came home all wasted again...and tried to give me shit again...my mom is so depressed lately and I don't know what to say to her anymore...I don't know how to make this better....I went to Otep on Saturday and had the best time. When I was head bangin' up by the mosh I almost touched the guitarist's hand...I saw American Head Charge too and the lead singer pointed back at me near the end of the performance and it was sweet. i was completely blitzed the entire time And I loved it. Thanx much to Meg because it would've never happened without her...and I want to say sorry meg...I never meant for things to happen the way they did....my mom's a psycho bitch and only meg will know what i mean. I'm sorry sweetie...thank you so much for sticking with me. I really do need you. Anyways I gotta jet....lot's of love -
PS:Amber is....everything beautiful
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| STD's occur at a rate of 40 million a year....ewwww |
[12 Feb 2005|01:46am] |
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEG! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOOOOOO YOOOOOUUUUUU! yay...gonna party...with meg...cause it's her birthday...and she rocks! you know what? I can hear invader zim in my head and it's kinda freakin' me out man...."Gerr...TACO'S ARE NOT WORTH RUINING THE MISSION! NO GERR!..." Gerr-"Maybe you're riiigghhtt.....I gotta get a bean burrito too!"...mwahahahahahaha......"piggy...no...not my piggy!" all of a sudden Gerr pulls out like a million more stuffed piggys ....wow I love that show. Anyways...I'm going to see otep tomorrow....cool....Meg invited me...I wonder if I could bum five dollars off someone....just til like...whenever i can get it i guess....oh shit...I hope I have pop bottles at home. hehe..well wish me luck for that...love you's lots...bye
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| 5 days until V-Day....do you feel like screaming yet? |
[10 Feb 2005|01:08am] |
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I hate valentine's day...I wish it was never invented...and I have to spend it alone again...and I know that if my life gets anymore fucked up I won't make it..I can't do this alone and everybody's leaving me...everybody hates me now I guess...maybe I'm better off alone now anyways...or maybe I should stop wasting space and really do something about me.
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[10 Feb 2005|12:19am] |
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Today in Graphics...I freaked out. we watched this damn movie on bullies and shit and i just freaked. I couldn't stop thinking of mike craig...and I can't stop crying.....and i feel like shit because I made christina feel bad. I din't mean to talk about it but if I hadn't said anything would they have forgotten just like all the other kids at school did? would they push it as far back as it would go in their heads...and just forget again? It's quite fucked up if you look at it from my point of view. Any ways...i feel like shit...I'm down to the last of my bud....and I feel like I can't breathe...I feel like I'm going to have a panic attack....It's funny how insecure I can be....and I never realized it until now...but I can't make myself smile anymore...and that makes me nervous.
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[09 Feb 2005|02:37am] |
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Ok so I went hom from PH. yesterday...my mom wasn't there...I had skipped school cause sunday was another rough night. My mom comes home all wasted starts crying and screaming on my bed in front of my friend sarah....we start fighting...she walks out...I start crying...panicking...searching for my bong...i go to light up...guess who walks back in? yup...mom's back...she starts freaking out...I'm gonna fry my brain when she's already fucked up off cocain and booze...she starts pitching glass ashtrays and picture frames at me....completely fucked up my new bong...which I made by the way...many long laboring hours...I was so heated I had to leave. Then today I felt really bad because I told Meg i couldn't find us a ride to cut 4-6th hr. , she wanted to get drunk...but i can't afford to lose any more credits...I'm scared to go home because I know she's waiting there all fucked up...just waiting to scream....I just wanna run away sometimes...but where would i go? somewhere far away and on my own so that way i couldn't fuck up anybody else's lives i guess...I'm just sick of feeling this way. And I went to talk to my friend Brad about it today...and he didn't even care...he just said "if it has to do with sarah I don't care" I was like wow asswipe did you ever think that everything doesn't have to do with you and your fucking sideline romances
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[05 Feb 2005|11:08pm] |
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--YOU--
Name: Toni
Gender: female Age: 16
Height: 5'9"
Hair color: Black orchid Eye color: brown
Location: Lexington
Fears: driving,being alone, living (not dying...i know it's ironic),vertigo
-HAVE YOU EVER--
Peed your pants? Not recently... no.
Cheated on someone? Never have, never will
Fallen off the bed? ummmmm...........hehe :-/.....two days ago actually....shhh don't tell
Fallen for a relative? well my uncle's sister's cousin's little nephew once......NO NOT REALLY YOU ASSHOLE
Had plastic surgery? nope siry bob
Broke someone's heart? can't say that I have
Had your heart broken? everyday
Had a dream come true? once...but then he moved away to alabama
Done something you regret? it's the story of my life
Cheated on a test? Oh no doubt about that one...most deffinately
Been raped? all in good fun yes (thank you alex...you've conquered me)
Broken a body part? an organ-my heart
--CURRENTLY--
Wearing: whatever the fuck i want (pj's)
Listening to: senses fail-lady in the blue dress
Chewing: on my heart
Feeling: like a plastic bag...almost transparent enough to disappear but just visible enough stay here and go unnoticed
Reading: go ask alice-annonymous (highly recommend reading this book if you're not straight x edge)
Located: spare bedroom
Chatting with: the voices in my head
Watching: family guy
Should really be: getting wasted somewhere else
--DO YOU--
Brush your teeth? nope..they're decaying as we speak....yes stupid servay i brush my teeth
Like anybody? no i love EVERYBODY....but I've recently suffered falling into and out of "like" with someone...big-stupid-head
Have any piercings? my ears...9 times...not sweet enough for holes in my face sorry guys :(
Drive? Umm.. kinda.I try anyways
Believe in santa clause? of course Ever get off the computer? yup..alot
--FRIENDS---
Who is your best? Brad,meg,sarah,Alex W.,Alex H.&Eric (it's hard to choose)
Who is the loudest? it's a toss up between cheddar & meg...maybe meg but it's hard to say
Who is the shyest?cookie or alex H.
Who is the 'hottest'? Deffinately Jim or Alex W....mmm I want to be on you
Who is the cutest? Josh
Who laughs the most? Meg
Who have you know the longest? Sarah W. no doubt (Pre-school represent!)
Who have you known the shortest? cookie
Do you belong to a crew? sure...the dopers mwahahaa, no but really I have very close ties to the numchuck community:) Do you hang out with the opposite sex? about 90% of my friends are guys and last time I checked my womanhood was still there so
Do you consider yourself popular? I wouldn't say "popular", but maybe respected...maybe known
Do you trust your friends? a few of them
Can you keep a secret? yes...as long as it's not too dirty
--LAST PERSON YOU--
Hugged: Jill
Gave e-props: Meg
Imed: chris Talked to on the phone: Gina Yelled at: Myself
Fell in love with: A boy with a broken jaw
Tripped: my dad
Turned upside down: charlie (dog-does that count?)
--PERSONAL--
What do you want to be when you grow up? An ***Artist...maybe one day I'll move to paris and write a book like morrison
What was the worst day of ur life?wow i dunno..there's been alot of those...oh, deffinately the day i came home from school and found my grandma on the floor after she had heart failure...or maybe it was when don pushed my mom through a glass coffee table..or the day that my mom told me to hang myself...I dunno you pick What is your most embarrassing story?I tend to sleep naked once in a great while(summer,it's hot, whatever-i just like being nude i guess) and my uncle came in my bedroom..and then proceeded to leave the door open and tell the entire household to look in my room. yup that's as bad as it gets buddies
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